begin again

[regndoft]

I have for a while now been meaning to dust off this account, and every time I'm held back by the simple fact that I'm not sure anyone here even remembers who I am, and a re-introduction seems like a very complicated and awkward thing. My last entry was in 2015, and the irony of me lamenting that I need to post here more often is not lost on me.

Here's what changed: I lived in Uppsala for five years before moving back last september and I miss it every single day. I did get my BA in religious studies, and am still working on an MA in Cultural Anthropology; something I should've been done with years ago, but turns out I have ADHD and a global pandemic isn't super conducive to studying anyway. Still grappling with that and what I want to do with my life. Since I married my girlfriend (!!!) and moved back to Stockholm I am technically a housewife, and thus spend most of my time on chores, going to therapy, and fighting off existential ennui.

Fandom-wise I'm still writing, and after a decade I might even be kinda sorta decent at it. I got back into anime and manga again, something I honestly didn't think I ever would (though I'm not actively keeping up with anything atm). Barring those two weeks in summer 2020 where I listened to literally nothing other than Les Misérables cast recordings and spent three months rereading the same j/jvj fics, I've mostly been dabbling in MXTX/danmei fandom for the past couple of years. Right now I'm having a great time with the Malevolent podcast and reading Weird Fiction.

I still care very much about Nordic folk culture and inflicting my extremely niche taste in music on unsuspecting bystanders, too.

Tbh I don't know if I'll be very good at updating here now either. But after spending almost a decade on Tumblr and Twitter, where I have for various reasons (including but not limited to being in some fandoms with major harassment problems) posted less and less of my own thoughts and works, the idea of going back to what is essentially Journalling In Public is very appealing.

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[regndoft]

Discord servers move very fast and I tend to become saddled with a pretty bad case of FOMO. I wish I COULD find one I felt chill with, because I like the idea of talking to people?? But in practise it hasn't worked out for me. And I agree my best time with Twitter was when I used it as a complement to Tumblr, as an isolated social media platform I think it's too hard to find and archive stuff for it to work for me, but it was a nice way to interact more casually with authors and artists I like haha.

I wonder if it's also because it hasn't had a hugely successful adaptation tbh?? I read the novels first, but I've got the impression I'm in the minority in that regard-- MDZS got a lot of attention with donghua, manhua and live-action, and I saw a lot of people get into TGCF through the donghua and then use the manhua as a start-off before tackling the (admittedly hellishly long) novel... SVSSS has a cancelled manhua and a donghua that's not exactly aesthetically appealing to the average anime/manga fan lol (plus it's the hardest story to adapt under censorship).

BINGQIU IS SO GOOD they're the only mxtx main couple I've actively searched for fanworks of. TT0TT

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lr, as an isolated social media platform I think it's too hard to find and archive stuff for it to work for me, but it was a nice way to interact more casually with authors and artists I like haha yes, this! in my previous comment I was struggling a little with putting my feelings about twitter for fandom into words, but this is exactly it. I value it for the ease of interactions, but imo it definitely works best in conjunction with another site.

Oh, that's a good point about the adaptations! I wasn't even thinking in that direction because the short-lived Scum Villain manhua is the only MXTX adaptation I ever checked out, but you make a good point about the other two novels both having multiple accessible points of entry and being easier to make a censored version of than SV.

Bingqiu... ♥ The number of fics I wrote for them are in the double-digits, and that's not including the horde of unfinished WIPs I still have hanging around in a folder somewhere. They're so inspiring!